Happy that the world outside is turning. My world is quite slower and smaller. A lot of things changed, but my past stays the same. Who i was is what makes me who I am. I will hold on to it and carry it with me to a bigger tomorrow.
I recently took the CliftonStrenghts finder test and results show that I build my ideas through context. It means that when I don’t feel stable about the present, I find structured ground by looking back to the past. I never thought much about this, and knowing it surprisingly put a new perspective in dealing with my personal issues.
We are just agents in this universe. There is a general notion of time. Each of us move along with it independently. My concept of self is “I am my own world”. I can be basic, eccentric, eclectic, or whatever/whoever I want to be.
We are to each of our own; however, the world we build for our own intersect to those of others.
When we live with other people, our worlds seem to move at the same pace. Just like when we were in high school and we had more or less the same interests and problems. This changes as we grow older and worlds start to drift apart. We get into different schools, jobs, families.
I used to gain confidence from comparing myself to the amazing people around me. If I could do as well as them, it means I’m also amazing. What I did not understand back then was that they were great because they paved their own paths. They weren’t complacent. They were comfortable with the grind. They knew what they were doing. They simply had the work ethic and right mindset.
As I look back, I always think if it is too late for me to practice what these amazing people ingrained in themselves.
